Let me start out by saying, there is not enough hours in the day. Lately, I’ve developed this toxic trait where I think I can do everything TODAY. Well, I can’t. I think I can, but I can’t. I am happy to sit down in front of my computer for the first time in two months for a Tuesday Journal Blog. The end of summer went into hyper speed and I am behind on everything. Well, not everything…..
I do have some work to do here on my blog, I am still navigating the pages and how I want things to be arranged. Overall, I am happy, but there are more ways I would like to utilize it. It needs a fresh look. Just like our house did. I am feeling very out with the old in with the new. Mostly because I have been living in a state of oppression the last couple years being at the will of children. Since Nova was born, I went from three kids to four kids back to caring for three of them. It has been a juggle. We are elbow deep in toddler and Nash being three does not help things. What is terrible twos? Who came up with that? Because 3 1/2 – 4 is the hardest age. The day they turn four, they turn into different little people.
Of course, it’s just a lot, but I am learning that tackling small tasks yields big results. Focusing on weeks accomplishments rather than what I accomplished today. Last week I had a goal in the Amazon space to key in on and this week, Matt and I rented a garbage dumpster and CLEANED HOUSE. I took last week as a whole and this week as a whole and have been the most productive that I have been in a long time.
I can’t do everything today, but I can do a lot this week.
Lots of emotions letting go of things in our home that needed to go. I am a very sentimental person, but letting go of things lately as a thirty five year old woman has been beneficial for me. I can recognize that. It isn’t letting go, it’s looking forward. Quite frankly, we just needed the venting to work better in the home and with the amount we had accumulated while caring for young kids, we just needed to downsize. It feels so fresh, like a fresh start. Things have their place and things quickly went into garbage bags. I kept a couple things just for me, when in the past I would have hung on to more.
We needed more room to enjoy our growth as the family that grew. We needed freedom within the walls so we can have more room for love, for playing, for looking forward. I have spent the last year closing a chapter on a book while embracing its sequel. Learning to live presently but also looking forward.
XOXO,