Tuesday is here again and When Harry Met Sally is on the television. We have had a good forty eight hours. I say we because I is not in my vocabulary. Forty eight hours of productivity in more ways than one, lines in the sand have been drawn on familial decisions. Giving me the ability to accept certain things and also look forward to the future. The littles and I have really bonded the last couple days. Mostly because they have been very responsive to my response to quarrels. I have been more patient, understanding and most of all supportive. The toddler kindergartner and age group is by far the hardest but also most rewarding stage of motherhood.
As a mother, I have quickly learned that listening and responding with my best foot forward are what the kids respect. There are little times throughout the day after being surrounded by kids all morning, afternoon and evening….and night where I lose myself in the hustle of it and something so small happens that snaps me back to reality. Just a snap, an oh. Seeing a homeless person on the side of the road in suburbia and realizing the kids whacking each other in the backseat is not so bad. Just significant little pings to make me realize how grateful I should be and how lucky I am.
I like to think this makes me humble in life and also a gift to be able to see these little pings as significant. Letting the kids play in the rain, saying yes within reason but just saying yes. Mom, let’s build a fort, Mom give me a hug even though I’m holding a hamper full of laundry. I stop and put it down and reach for the little arms reaching my way.
The last few weeks Izzy has been getting up late at night and grabbing a blanket, pillow and making a bed on my floor next to my bed. It’s been driving me nuts and she caught me off guard last night because I was still awake when she made her way my direction after sleeping for a couple hours. I asked her why she keeps doing this and she said I want to be close to you. I quietly grabbed a pillow, blanket and made a bed on my floor and made a fort for her to sleep in tonight.
XOXO,